Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Thursday, January 6, 2011

To Whom It May Concern...


To whom it may concern, or more appropriately, those who aren't concerned

about the sad state affairs of our nation, culture, our childerns' future

you say it is of no consequence to you, for you will be gone

but you are the one who put the child in that situation all along

remember with me now. you were the one who chose to have sex rawback

more concerned with the feeling of a nut but didn't think about where that birthcontrol was at

it was you who chose to forgo prenatal care you who chose to ignore that womb and what was going on in there

it was your choice to hang with your boys and smoke that weed instead of coming up with what your child may need

it was your decision to not come around till that child was 2, never once thinknig of what he was going through

it was your choice to let him cry and take your hatred of his father out on him and wish he would die

you were the one who sold your WIC to buy you a bottle now your child has nothing in his bottle

you leave him to cry while you hang with your peeps who all talk about how much your child reeks

never once have you cleansed him a qucik flip of a wipe and hes done for the night

this child who soon becomes 5 and can speak whatever you teach

instead of saying his ABC's his first sentences are nigga and bitch please

he never sang the Itsy Bitsy Spider more like I told her to bust it open so I could come inside her

he can't count doesn't even know his numbers worries more about making it rain and clap like thunder

this child that goes to school with no preparation, then you say its because his teacher is caucasion

this child that gets suspended for fights because you said if they talk crazy to you knock out their lights

this child who has never been to another childs home to play because you never taught him how to behave day to day

this child who in 5 more years will become a victim of the block, forgoing school supplies for a glock

this child who will catch his first case, not because of his deeds, but taking an older thugs place

juvenile dentition will release him at 18 and he will return to the same scene

no real education or motivation to do anything worthwhile but you welcome him home with a smile

tell him about what he has missed and which niggas held him down and who didn't

ignorance flows from your lips to his ears and he will be back in the street life it appears

he goes out one night to right those wrongs and to your despair he never comes home

hes found lying in a ditch cold to the bone, lay there dying while you were talking on the phone

while you were keeping it real with your friends, those thugs, he was meeting his end

now you sit with tears streaming down your face screaming who would do this in the first place

never owning up to your part but deep inside you feel it in your heart

people will treat you like you did them, 'sorry bout his loss but thats on him"

you will bury your child and wonder how could no one care, but you said the same of others, to be fair

so when we will stop being selfish and do the best for our seeds or will you continue to glorify misdeeds

a circle of violence is not a circle to keep unbroken, these behaviors should be more thought provoking

unfortunately another minute has passed, somebodies childs' breath was their first and it was somebodies childs' last

Copyright 2010 Butterfli

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Dark Days...is there always a rainbow at then end?

People always say after the storm comes brighter days. I have often wondered if that is true. I know many people who seem to go through storm after storm but are still waiting on that rainbow. What if it doesn't come? Then what? We have all heard the sayings..every cloud has a silver lining; out of the darkness comes the light etc..but what if it doesn't come?

Even the best of people go through trials and tribulations that cause them to question each and every thin in their life. Sometimes it is extremely frustrating to try to live a life being as good a person as you can be, while others tend to pull you into their storms or tread over you. It is often said that good guys finish last but I think good girls really do. In the times we live in being kind is over-rated. I myself have always been a kindhearted, giving person and I am really re-thinking that lifestyle as of right now. It is annoying when people try to take and take and take and never want to give. Or take you kindness for weakness. Never mind that God commands us to live as good kind beings. How can we say those words when the good are often the last place finishers in society. The child who bullies others at school are hailed as tough guys and heroes at home while the one who turns the other cheek is a punk, wuss or sissy. The one who kicks a homeless person is hilarious and non tolerant of beggars while the one who gives him food is soft and gullible. The child who is bullied comes back and shoots up his school..he is the one with problems but what about all the adults he told who ignored him and told him to toughen up? The person who is kind and tries to help everyone is stupid instead of being a good servant of God? Really?

Society sucks and I guess that's why it is controlled by people who suck... I just wish there was a little corner of it only for the good guys and girls

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Evolution

Lets see. A lot of changes have occurred. New state, new city, new job, new environment. I am so grateful for the changes. I love my new city. I love my new job. I love the prospect of new opportunities in general. I see this as a real time to emerge as a new and better person. As they say out with the old and in with the new :D I cannot wait to get started. I have new friends that are closer to here that I look forward to meeting up with. New prospects in all areas.

My old friends, I will never forget them and I miss the times that we shared. I have many fond memories. I did lots of growing and maturing in the time I spent there. I truly believe it was all in preparation for my move here. I am speechless at some of the kind words that have been emailed, written or spoken. Truly humbled to have such great people in my life.

The little people..they are adjusting. Its hard on a kid to move, but glad it was done before the oldest started middle school. Those are friendships that can shape your future. All in all I know this was the right choice :)

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Frantic Week


This past week has been a major blessing to all who were able to witness it. Whether you voted for him or not, watching Obama take his office was an amazing thing. More people are now aware of the avenues one must take to become president and the activities surrounding taking office. I hope all who participated have the patience to wait while Obama and his team try to fix this mess of an economy. He seems to be off to a good start
I am extremely proud that a person of color is in the white house for the first time. I am not overly optimistic that this will fix all the race issues America has. That starts at home with families. I have had various friends across the U.S. say that they are having issues in their cities with small anti-minority groups popping up. SMH. People need to grow up. As for how the Black community should take this....I don't know. I can not say that it will inspire instant unity and well wishes. The black community as a whole seems to be stuck in that Lynch theory. I refuse to participate in such small mindedness. Rather I hope this presidency is an inspiration to all races to try to better themselves because nothing can be gained or changed without an individual evolving.
I do not think this singal event signiies the fulillment of Martin Luther King Jr's dream. It is but a small step. I mean look at the cookies that bakery in New York was selling and the things the owner was saying. I think once people reach a point where they judge a person based on their personality, actions and words regardless of their race, we will have fulfilled Dr. Kings dream and we are far from that. ~be blessed~

Friday, January 9, 2009

So how did that superman thing work out for you son?


So....my son took a leap today believing he could fly~ He couldn't, as he soon learned. He hit the steps and got banged up. In spite of it all, through the tears I could see he was really happy. Odd. This was not his first "flight." Just one that had more severe consequences than the others *Sigh*..
It did get me to thinking about childrens' inherent need to fly. More so little boys than girls. They also will not accept 'no' for an answer..No matter how big of a 'fail' they will surely be out there again trying to fly.....Where does that ambition and drive go when we get to being adults? As adults some of us are determined and will keep trying until we get it others try once or twice and they are done..just give up. Where is their inner Superman? *uugh visual of someone in cape and tights that does not need to rock that* Just a thought...and more importantly why dont the boys take a clue from the girls and cut that out..its much easier on moms heart lol
~mztyfying1~
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Thursday, January 8, 2009

mysteriousness personified

~Is it possible to be a mystery and an open book at the same time? Somewhat of an obvious enigma? I feel that is what I am. I feed off honest and open communication but at the same time relish in not giving all of the intricate workings of me up. The enigma personified is what I am often referred to as. I am in the randomist of moods tonight...kind of all over the place..bear with me

As I lay here listening to the wonders of nature outdoor I keep having all kinds of thoughts. I just watched a video of a woman making a complete and utter fool of herself over a man that she caught cheating on her.....is this what is entertainment is now. Watching others at their lowest points and giggling about it..~Karma is a warrior...

Then I think about the context of the show..catching people in supposedly committed relationships cheating. I see the pain that it can cause..Have felt the pain that it can cause. Hear people say they would rather not know. Why fear? Better to know whats behind that closed door than risk it springing open (STDs)~Truth is a healer. ...

Now on to the kids..why is it that some women feel the need to scream "its not your baby anyway" when they find out a man has cheated. Why worry about trying to hurt him....you have that child to live your life for..anything else is just extra. I wish at times we could posses some of the qualities as adults that we do as children. The world would be better off~Innocence is a guide

For all the wondering I do, or anyone does for that matter..there are no concrete answers to some things...human emotion is a mutha...but we are by nature emotional creatures.Imagine how powerful we could be if we could keep the emotional aspect of some things in our daily life in check.Marvelous things could occur~Self control is a must.....
~mztyfying1